Day 27 – October 10th, 2017
This morning I woke up not feeling too well. My stomach was really hurting me, which can I add that bellyache in Portuguese is dor de barriga. We all took the church van to our Projecto Pepe location. The church van driver was driving a bit like a maniac. I felt even worse after getting out. But today was actually a really good day for me at Pepe.. well it was until the last like 20 minutes. Even though I felt sick, this one little boy that was crying let me hold him and he fell asleep in my arms and it just felt nice to be needed. It made my whole day at Pepe so great. That is until a little girl threw up and it covered what seemed like half the classroom floor. I was already feeling sick and it was just worse after that.
I felt like I was dragging myself off the church van when it dropped us back off at the house. I laid down for a bit and skipped lunch thinking it would make me feel better..it didn’t. I woke up more nauseated than before. And to top it all off, I had a pounding headache. I slept through lunch and unfortunately didn’t feel quite up to Portuguese class. I really did not want to miss class because I don’t want to get behind and I feel like I’m doing a good job in the class.
I made the decision to go with the team to a bible study. I felt awful, but I didn’t want to stay home and in bed any longer. At first, I really regretted going. But, it was a good time. And I am glad that I went.
Tonight, i’m writing this from the balcony swing while cuddling the fuzzy blanket I brought. It’s actually cold enough for me to get chill bumps tonight which is great. Thankfully the nausea and stomach ache have subsided. And my headache is getting a bit better.
I’ve just been looking through my pictures and reading some old messages. It’s weird to say, but I already feel like a different person. I was reading messages from the week I left and it feels like a lifetime ago. It’s weird for me to think that when I get home, I may be like a new person. Some days thats really scary because I feel that I won’t be able to readjust when I get back home or that I won’t fit in with my friends anymore. But also, I hope I don’t readjust perfectly. I want God to totally transform my life. And I love my friends back home so much, but I’ve already given that situation to God. I trust that he’ll keep my good and true friends around. Plus he’s given me 8 new best friends here, too.
Physically, I don’t think my feet are ever totally clean here. I don’t know that 10 mani/pedis back home will ever get my nails back in good shape. Even immediately after I wash my hair, it still feels a bit gross from sweat. The modest clothing I have to wear has actually grown on me and I don’t see why I thought it would be such a big deal (I do miss Nike shorts everyday though).I don’t even really think of it as modest clothing anymore, its just normal to me now. I can tell I’m getting adjusted to the heat; some days I forget that we don’t even have AC.
Spiritually, my faith has already grown so much in my short few weeks here. Spending time in God’s word isn’t something that i just do at the end of the night if I’m not too tired like I would back home. I look forward to studying God’s word here. It makes me feel better and closer to God. I’ve seen God answer so many of my prayers. SO MANY. I feel that I can always feel the Holy Spirit here. I never feel separated from God. If this is happening not even a month in, I cannot wait to see how much I grow in my faith in the next 7 months I get to spend here.