Day 26 – October 9th, 2017
I thought I loved Monday free days. Today it’s mostly just been stressful. And sad. I was really missing home.
On Mondays we get wifi for the day. Which I will start by saying I’m thankful to get wifi whenever I can. But it’s really hard for all of nine of us students to try calling home on the same day. We try to not all talk at once, but we can’t control our parents schedule back home. So the wifi has been awfully slow today and most of us couldn’t get our calls to work very well. It was very frustrating.
I’m having to reapply to Kennesaw State, even though I was accepted last year, which has been extremely frustrating for me. If you’re in high school and you’re tired of college apps, I don’t want to hear it because here some of us are trying to do it from Africa. Everybody please pray that Kennesaw will receive all my documents in time and that I’ll be accepted again and that I’ll find a great apartment and I’ll be blessed with great roommates.
I woke up a bit homesick today. I hate that homesickness just hits you out of nowhere. You can just wake up and feel out of place and miss home. It sucks. Thankfully I got to call my best friend John Hunter, cry it out for a few minutes, and it really did make me feel a lot better.
I think I’m having such a hard time thinking about no wifi this week because Ansley has homecoming court this week. I would give anything to be able to be there. I just hope it works out where I can at least go somewhere to get wifi and FaceTime home to see her. I’m really praying that God will make it one of the best nights of her high school years. I hope everybody will pray that. And also please pray that I’ll get to see her walk under those Friday night lights.
I feel like today flew by. I snapped my fingers and the day was over. I was trying to get so much done today (which I did accomplish a lot) that the day was over in a blink. I was trying to prep for the bible study we lead, prepare to teach english at Pepe and everything else we have going on this week.
As I write this, I still have an hour left with wifi, but I went ahead and said my goodbyes. I knew that the later I waited the more upset I would get and I didn’t want to say my goodbyes in tears because I refuse to do that to my family and friends. Monday nights are just so hard because it’s like saying goodbye to my parents and sisters all over again. The goodbyes are just so hard.
I’m glad God has brought me here. I’m glad I’m experiencing all these emotions. I know that God has called me here to suffer for His glory and for His purpose. So what if I’m homesick? Jesus never even had a permanent home. I have an earthly home. I’ve got to remind myself of that. It’s E-A-R-T-H-L-Y. I cannot and will not yearn for earthly things.
On the hard nights, I’ll listen to all the 80’s rock I can that reminds me of my daddy and I’ll be thankful that my momma blows my messages up when I have wifi because it reminds me how much she cares. And I’ll give it all to my heavenly Father. And I’ll find comfort in His arms and spending time with Him. I serve such an awesome God.